Wednesday, October 16, 2013

From The Scriptures: 1

This, I say, is a confession
Or, a declaration
To myself, and to you, my reader

I am slowly turning into nothing:
No thoughts, no provocations, no urges
And no stimulation;
Just go on doing things that matter ---
Or maybe they don’t!
But I’m keen on finishing things that start
All things that started must finish at some point
And the finishing line will push itself onward,
It’d want to converge someday
Into eternity, into madness
Into a sublime territory of coloured nothingness

Then, at the turn of midnight or midday
Or at dusk, or at dawn
Or at some other unnamed unnoticed casual hour of the day
The chaos will find itself contained in supreme calmness.

Monday, September 16, 2013



Let’s put all the blame on you for once
And let my brain take rest.
For a moment,
Let’s check what thoughts an empty head can bear
To blame you, or not?

Ah this mad, mad world
And its crazy people;
All o’ them love it
Everybody wants to go out and scream
Everybody wants the excitement, even I myself want it
So bad;
And then when I finally have it between my two hands,
It leaves me so depressed.


A frail body, a weak mind
With an even weaker will---
That’s what I am given
To face it all with and remain still
It’s so damn hard, oh mother
I can’t bear it, I can’t pretend
To be strong; I can’t pretend
To be sweet; I can’t pretend
To be a man the way you want it


What I am, I am
What you are, you are
And you might change
In years to come
When you will not be so young anymore.
I might change, too
I might grow older
And have a house;
Have a place of my own,
A room to seek rest after a long day

What will not change, what will remain the same
As it is now
Is a part in you and in me---
Where we keep our regrets
Where we bury our old selves


Love undefined
Is a bittersweet song
With a winding tune
And a happy refrain;
Echoing through unsatisfied hearts
And reflected in wine untouched


These days I wake up with my heart pounding
And I don’t remember any of my nightmares
Tomorrow I will wake up again
With a heart beating very, very fast
I don’t know why
Why I am feeling this bottomless pain
Utter a million words that do not make any sense
Smile without an effect and deny my presence
I can feel a strong but subtle resistance
I quit this game. I stand on the sideline
And I want to play. I want to see it to the very end
It is dark. It is cold. A kiss still feels so warm on my skin.
Blood rushing up your breasts, to turn your skin scarlet
I’ll lick off the blood and savour it around my tongue
Swings me up and down, this wave
Take me gently into your grave.


That which is not to be attained
By desirous hearts and thirsty lips;
That which is outside the boundary
Of tangled arms and mingling bodies…
You know what to call it
Choose a name.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

The Walls in My Land

The walls are trashed with posts
And they all demand an answer
Whichever direction I look
I see questions, but not one answer.

Is there no one, no one at all who can stand up
And state things as they are?
Is everybody trying to hide
Behind the questions they put up?

My country, you have thrown your soul
Into the dark waters of Ganges
People sink deeper beneath people;
And this land will sink too, leaving no trace.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Oh I Wish

Oh I wish it so much
That love could be without
Lines, directions, destinations;
Yes, I wish it was true
That we could spend the nights
In whispers, or maybe
Without speaking at all
With our eyes and lips doing all the work
As my fingers walk
On your shoulder
Through your hair
On the moonlit skin, so fair!

Now the stars are all falling
And i am on the floor, crawling
Don't you know how hard it is
To smile and smooth out the crease
Life is so very funny, you see
When you want to go, you ain't free
And after you make a wish for something
To happen, you wish you wished nothing. Nothing at all.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

A Song For My Lover

Ah let me see You
For long,
Let me look at Your face
And say nothing at all
I don't wanna kiss You now;
I'll only look at You
And say nothing.

Let me see
How You blush
When i look at You like this
How You try to hide
Behind Your eyelashes
And how those lines
Form dimples when You smile

I wanna see You smile
For ever, and ever afterwards
I wanna look at You
At Your smiling lips, for a long time
For a very long time
As long as this world lasts
As long as my heart can bear it
As long as it takes
To be born again---
And oh! If I ever get back
If i ever have to walk this floor
Once more,
I'd like to come
Just to count
The sweet beads of sweat on Your face.


Now I’m more than a quarter of A century old, And I often think I’ve wasted All my gold; Wish I had got a different, some Other ...